june june oh JUNEEEE

last day di XID.. i've missed you already guys!
walau bukan klas yang rame but i do love u all.. :D

long time no see guys! now i'm back *promise myself not to forget to write this blog* LOL..:D this june was one of the hard months for me.. there're problems, sadness-lots of, happiness, and yaaa.. evrything. the good one is He made this month hard for me but also precious.. coz without tempations, human being will never consider Our Mighty God right? ok mulai sajah yah..
awal-awal juni.. finally the final exam had finished! and now i'm free from that sucks books, from stay up studying till midnite, from stressfull and fear facing the super-hard exams -_________-"
but the fear hasn't overed yet.. still there was one thing about school which frightened me the most.. pengumuman kenaikan kelass!! NO NO!! takut banget ganaek... ok. i'm not that stupid but FYI this whole Year, my math score always below 60 (PU). and how could i relax if our math teacher never give us any remedial or something to cover our terrible score?? aaa.. i HATE that man!! hope we'll never meet again!
but yea finally God showed me His way.. saya naik kelas! hehehe... thx GOD!! bunches of Thankies!! :D :D *walau nilai mat paspasan-61- tapi saya senang skali!* hehehe
welcome 12th grade!!

and then say welcome to the Mr. HOLIDAYS! hehehe.. but as i said before. this wasn't overed yet and i couldn't get any rest! haha..
these are my to do(s) list:
1. latihan DBC buat wisuda SMA n ultah aloysius
2. panbuk sma
3. latian band buat sweet
4. latian jadi pagerayu di kawinan temen
5. siapin surprise party one of my besties

but ya God has His own way.. and i believe that was the best for me..
akirnya yang terlaksana itu cuma no. 2, no.3 n setengahnya dari no.1

ini nomer 3.. kita masi smpet ngband di GrandEastern.. *aww.. great to took a part in a party.. i know that my voice maybe yah paspasan but i love singing! hope i could improve my skill more and moreee :)*

last friday, when i got up, i was told that my grandpa*from dad* has passed away. the first impression is: SHOCKED. of course,,
and then : gawat.. hr ini harusnya latian dbc trus ngasi surprise buat tmen trus malemnya ada sweet juga,,, trus langsung nghubungin bbrp orang minta maap..
besokny hrs jadi pager ayu
lusanya harus tampil di skolah

my grandpa is a healthy man.. bahkan dia jarang sakit n gapernah ke rumah sakit..
he's 82 years old. that news hit my family badly especially my grandma.. but once again God is good people.....
kira2 beberapa jam sebelon meninggal dia smpet bilang sm ema
engkong : "pulang yu.. pulang"
ema : "ka mana? balik kamana deui ieu teh imah ni" (translate: where? where will u go.. this is your house!)
engkong : "pulang we lah yu.. pulang"
ema : "ah embung.. ni we lah sorangan.. wo mah embung (translate: no.. you go yourself. i don't want go with you"

ato apa yg dia omongin sama sodara
engkong : "nanti tengah malem.. saya mau meninggal"
*padahal di kamar itu gada jam ato jendela jadi dia gatau itu siang ato malem.. n trnyata jam 00.02 dia meninggal..

ato omongan sama mam/papi
engkong : "kalo si X (anggap cc gw) uda skolah?"
papih : "udah selesai.. bntar lagi kuliah loh.."
engkong : " oh bagus bagus. smua harus sekolah yah yang tinggi supaya pinter nantinya.. pokonya semua hrs sekolah sampe beres!"

walau dia uda pergi.. tanpa warisan pun, tp warisan yg sebenernya itu adalah apa yg dia kasih buat kita semua selama hidupnya.. bahkan waktu di rumah duka ratusan orang dari mana-mana mpe dr luar kota segala dateng.. banyak yang ikut sedih.. banyak pendeta dateng.. itu karena he's a good man and everybody loves him.. n hrsnya kita semua seneng karena he believes in Jesus jadi kalo sekarang meninggal pun dia ga bakal mati.. dia bakalan hidup kekal di surga.. :)

n then buat urusan-urusan yg akirnya batal, i've thought about it..
untung aja.. untung aja.. ga kejadian waktu cc wisuda ato waktu liburan...
mau gimana juga, harus ada salah satu yang berkorban.. and i'm proud it's me..
thx God for the right time.. i believe you know what's best for us! walau banyak yang batal, banyak kerugian, n banyak ksempatan yg kebuang, i didn't regret it.. this is my last tribute for u Grandpa.. be happy in heaven :)

and also i know that someday i'll die.. will people come to my cemetery? will people cry for me? how many people care and love me? and how my family continue their life without me?
those are questions in my mind if you ask me about death.. whenever you want God, i'm ready if you want me to die.. i have believed you so i won't go to hell.. just one wish God,

"if someday i die, hope my friends, my family could continue their life, could go on seaching their identity or reaching their future.. and also i hope if oneday i day, my death could be a lesson for other people not to waste their time, waste their life with such unseful things like drugs, sex, or something else..because you'll never know when God calls you back to Him."